Memories

assalamualaikum
i'm talking about my past story today...i feel better to write in english...if talking in malay,,sampai part jiwang,,maunye nanges tetibe dalam lab computer nih kang...huhuhuhu..if i use english,,i'm not really into what i'm talking about...
so..it's really hard to forget all the things about our first love...IDK,,maybe he's my first love...i've loved him for many years but i never get repay for loving him..even only a tiny space in his heart..maybe once but haish,,,i dunno...what he do..what he said...will always make me melt,,even i said i hate him for life but he will always there in my mind...in my heart...i just dunno why i can't get rid of him...somebody out there..i'm sure not much but a few were or still in the same situation with me,,,it's hurt inside really hurt and take big time to move on..kan orang kata doa tuh mujarab,,dulu zaman indah,,doa perkara2 yang tak logik then tak pikir panjang..what will be on the future so now the bad thing happen barulah nak menyesal..ALLAH tuh makbulkan doa hambanye...tapi kita selalu meminta pada ALLAH secara melulu,,something that u make joke of and will destroy us in the end...but HE knows...he give what we asked for to make we realise the lessons in what we asking for...so next time we will munasabah sikit bila mintak something,,,
he's the one that i really miss big time,,,friends think i'm just playing around. but i swear my bestfriend know what and how i feel about him,,,he used to be my mr.right once...he's the person that make my day unobviously for this many years..but i think i'm enough with him..i'm tired for loving him,,i'm tired for waiting him,,i'm really tired...they thought i'm lucky to caught his eyes,,to caught his attention...but me don't feel it the same way,,he used to tell me that he love me once..but i'm just a strangers in his life now
i just have to move on totally without him,,,i'm sick,,his face.his smile,his voice,his advice,his anger,his eyes,,his tazkirah,his laugh,.............i'm sick of this sucks thing.......

ahmad fakhrul razi bin darmawi,,,,

hate me to help me to hate u...

ignore me to help me to ignore u

leave my life to help me leave everything about u behind

i'm tired to wait for u,,i'm tired for seeking ur heart,,,

thanks for all the memories.....................

someday we will find a better place for us,,,,

i used to in love with u once.. ='(

but now i'm leaving for good

totally throw away all story about us...

insyaallah